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Hey sis You are beautiful Your mistakes don't define you You are a rare gem Your brown skin is exotic You are a queen Your love is pure You are unforgettable Your words are full of thought You speak highly of yourself Your energy is contagious Hey Sis series by Ms Carol other reads https://theehangoutbuddy.blogspot.com/2020/05/dear-us-black-people-let-this-be-last.html https://theehangoutbuddy.blogspot.com/2020/05/dear-woman-of-my-time_27.html https://theehangoutbuddy.blogspot.com/2020/05/lock-down-feels-how-are-you-feeling-is.html https://theehangoutbuddy.blogspot.com/2020/05/still-i-stand.html

Nikiona karau nafaa kufeel safe instead nafeel scared Badala ya kuwategemea tunawaogopa Badala ya kutulinda wanatuwinda Badala ya kutulinda wanatumurder Badala ya kutulinda wanatuiba  Siwezi make report, Utumishi kwa wote imegeuka biashara Naenda aje kuseek justice kwa leaders of injustice? Karibu kenya where tunaogopa karau more than covid-19 Karibu kenya where Mtoto wa 13 years ana-threaten karau ako na gun Karibu kenya where jamaa anajaribu kuzika the wife analala kwa streets na coffin ya the wife juu ya karau Karibu kenya where mwenye hana pesa ya mask anachapwa to death na karau juu amebreak curfew akitafuta hiyo pesa Karibu kenya where Karau ananichapa hajavaa hiyo mask.  Karibu kenya where Navunjwa pua na kuibiwa na karau na nikienda kureport kwa police station nafukuzwa kama criminal Karibu kenya where a 2 mnth old baby ana fight for his life kwasababu ya tear gas ya karau Karibu kenya where Kijana ana-suffocate to death kwasababu ya tear...

Dear us black people What you are about to read is not new news to us, it is a wake up call These are not new words/actions to us all, we have heard AND done it all before!  And I am sick and tired of being sick and tired! No time is good time to say what most of us don’t want to hear especially now! but... Is this the time we finally listen and DO BETTER? I am angry at us and angry for us  I am ANGRY AT US because of.. Black on black violence  Black on black mugging  Black on black killing  Black on black disrespect  Black on black crime Black on black RACISM We don’t help or do better amongst ourselves  How will they treat us better when we don’t treat each other better? How will they respect us when we don’t respect each other? How will we grow if we don’t uplift each other? How will they STOP with the racism when we fight the racism with racism? How will we have a voice when we CHOOSE not to vote because think we...

Dear Woman Of My Time Fall in love with yourself, Always speak kindly to yourself even when you fall short, NO ONE IS PERFECT. Never settle and open your heart to the possibility of real love nomatter how many times its broken, Your ability to love will be stretched in ways you didn’t think possibly exist, You will forgive more times than you are willing to, You will want to forget and maybe in some cases you will but when you don’t, cut them off! Stand 10 toes down in the truth of who you are and what you believe in, You are complicated, but isn't that more fun! Never give up or settle to fit into “societal standards” Your dream, however crazy it is.. is reason enough to keep you going, Feminism is great, but remember equality is neither equity nor similarity, Learn to walk in heels if you want to not because someone else wants you to, Remember to always leave a little sparkle wherever you go, Put some money away and TRAVEL, see the world from your eyes, You are sup...

How do i forget the unforgettable? It has been a while, should i be okay? Stop! Stop! I have screamed to my heart and mind. I promise i have tried.. i really have but... How do i let go of the synchronization of our hearts? The deep dance of our souls, A love so deep it could not be defined, "why is it so hard for you? "Why can't you just move on?" They ask. How do i make them understand when i myself can't? How do i make my heart heal and move on from the death of what we had? Why should i now say that it was what was? How do i speak of us as a past? The perfection of our love is gone, Torn away by life and distance, Do you still think of me? Us? Will we ever get it back? Do you still think of me at the exact time i think of you? Do you remember every moment we shared? I'm i still important to you? Does your heart now belong to someone else? My mind is racing and my heart is breaking. How do i make it all go away?  how do i not cry? I...

I feel lost I thought I had it all somewhat figured out I believe that I knew who I was I was sure of the path I was taking I had trust in my journey But why do I feel lost? I feel lost Is it because of the decisions I have made? Is it because the world suddenly turned upside down? Is it because of the unpredictable future? Is it because I suddenly lost all my money and I don’t know how it happened? Is it because I was too blinded by my new found comfort zone? Now I am stuck in this place for I don’t know how long I am stuck in the running thoughts of my mind, how do I slow them down? I am stuck in all the emotions I am feeling, should I let them take over? I feel lost I try to talk myself out of them but I don’t think it’s working I try to remember who I was before I was here but I can’t Who I’m i? Who I’m I? I repeat to myself continuously Should I just give in and adjust to this new reality? I'm I justified to feel this way? Is it time for me to find and fol...

Dear mama This is not just for Mother’s Day, it is for EVERYDAY I still don’t understand how you do what you do! You have been solid since birth You have raised me without hesitation or complaints You have shared yourself to me amazingly! You have toiled tirelessly to give me everything out have You have given yourself to me over and over again You have loved me without having to say it You have turned all my frowns to smiles You have made me who I am today I am grateful because I have you I am blessed because I have you I am content because I have you I am loved because I have you I am prayed for because I have you I am sorry for all the times I complained I am sorry for all the times I didn’t understand I am sorry for all the times I felt entitled I am sorry for all the times I took you for granted I am sorry for not saying thank you enough I am sorry for not saying I LOVE YOU enough I am sorry for not being there for you enough You are love You are a que...