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Damned is the heart

You don’t love me,

You love the idea of loving me, 

You love the idea of having me in your life

You love the idea of “this is who is right for me”

Damned is the heart

I mean… 

I’m amazing!

Im a lucky find,

You find comfort in me

You have peace of mind and all that good stuff you would want from your woman 

I’m everything you want 

Damned is the heart

Because…. 

I’m not everything you need

I don’t give you the butterflies 

I don’t fill up your mind with ME

I don’t make your heart skip a beat 

I just don’t cut it… 

Damned is the heart

Well…

You try to hold on 

You try to do right by me

You try to be committed to me

You try to choose me over and over again 

You try to be happy 

You TRY AND FAIL because I’m just not the one 

Damned is the heart 



Random writes by Miss Carol 

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