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IS COVID-19 TO BLAME?

I feel lost
I thought I had it all somewhat figured out
I believe that I knew who I was
I was sure of the path I was taking
I had trust in my journey
But why do I feel lost?
I feel lost
Is it because of the decisions I have made?
Is it because the world suddenly turned upside down?
Is it because of the unpredictable future?
Is it because I suddenly lost all my money and I don’t know how it happened?
Is it because I was too blinded by my new found comfort zone?
Now I am stuck in this place for I don’t know how long
I am stuck in the running thoughts of my mind, how do I slow them down?
I am stuck in all the emotions I am feeling, should I let them take over?
I feel lost
I try to talk myself out of them but I don’t think it’s working
I try to remember who I was before I was here but I can’t
Who I’m i? Who I’m I? I repeat to myself continuously
Should I just give in and adjust to this new reality?
I'm I justified to feel this way?
Is it time for me to find and follow a new path?
Is this the time for me to learn in a different way?
Is this the time for me to find the new me?
Is this the time?
I’m I really lost?
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Unanswered questions series by Miss carol

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